If only......

I dont know what makes me to write these things. But then my blog thrives on wishful thinking.

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He was staring at the scene in front. The sun was just setting behind the snow capped mountains. There was a reddish glow in the sky and some clouds were cutting across the horizon. He turned his face to see Her sitting on the bench beside him. For a moment he wondered what was more beautiful - Her or the scene in front of him. He wanted to run his fingers through Her beautiful hair. His hand involuntarily went towards her hair, but he withdrew just in time. He couldnt do it. After all they were 'just' friends. He clutched the small box in his other hand....at least for some more time.

She was staring at the setting sun too. But her thoughts were elsewhere. Actually her thoughts were in disarray. She was sitting with a good friend of Her's and yet was feeling edgy. Maybe it was because of the turmoil in her heart. She knew her feelings towards him were more than just friendship. But something was stopping her from crossing the line. She also did not know if he felt the same way for her. And then she had already taken a decision today. Something jostled her out of her thoughts. She felt as if he was bringing his hands towards her. She turned towards him and felt as if he had just withdrawn his hand. Or maybe it was her mind playing games. After all it was in chaos.

Her : Whats that in your hand?

Him (grasping it more thightly) : Oh nothing! How come you called me here today?

He could feel that she was hesitating to tell something. But he just let her take her own time. She replied after a long time.

Her : My parents received a marriage proposal for me........

She felt as if she saw his smile fade a little. Maybe a small frown appeared on his face. But he was back to normal in an instant.

His mind was now in bedlam. A thousand thoughts hit him at the same instant. He had never been able to figure out if she ever wanted to take their friendship to a new level. Now maybe he was going to lose out on an opportunity. He was desperate to find out the answer

Him : What did you say?

Her : I said yes.

His mind went totally blank. He was stupefied. Now he knew she shared no such feelings. If she did then she wouldnt have agreed to some random guy. Maybe she viewed him as just a good friend. He loosened the grip on the box. It was now redundant.

She looked at his face. She wanted to read his expressions. Maybe a tinge of disappointment on his face would reveal that he actually had feelings for her. But his face was inscrutable. Maybe he never had looked at her more than a friend. If he had then this would have been the time to tell. She felt saddened.

He turned his face to stare back at the scene in front of him. The sun had set. Maybe he had sensed sadness on her face. Or maybe it was just the twilight playing games.

Her (getting up from the bench) : I am leaving. Are you coming?

Him : Congrats......No you carry on......

She gave a quick smile and started walking away. She was crestfallen. Maybe they were destined to be 'just' friends. She turned back after walking some distance. She saw him throw the thing in his hand into the horizon. If only.........

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