Lost

I am feeling completely lost. The focus is not there anymore. My brain is trying hard to comprehend how to multitask. I might given many lectures on managing time but now I am trying hard to follow what I preach!

One way to avoid this kind of a situation is to learn how to say 'no'. But somehow I end up taking more responsbilities than what I can handle. I want to do everything. I want to please everyone. But in the long run this is never a good idea. Trying to do more than what is possible is going to lead to dissatisfaction.

Somehow the fact that I never trust anyone is hitting me hard. Small activities that I can actually delegate to others is being done by me only because I want to do it myself. This is not only in my work-life but in my personal life too. And this is today affecting my life.

I am looking for motivation and encouragement. Maybe I should take a long holiday. Believe me .... a holiday is due. So that I can unclutter my brain and it can sync up with the heart! Multitasking has never been a quality in a guy and I dont know how girls can do it.

I hope my brain gets the deserved break. Till then I am lost.........