Mind Games
There have been times in my life when I have felt lost. Lost into oblivion I could say. These are times when my otherwise sane mind is usually very vulnerable. Vulnerable to what, you could ask. Sensing that all barriers have been lifted, senseless thoughts enter my mind. My mind gets befuddled trying to process these thoughts. The grey cells refuse to work. Tiredness creeps in and this state of my mind I could say is my Achilles' Heel.
These are the times when I have lost focus. A Man's brain I know has none of the multitasking features that its better half, the Female brain has. Thoughts that tend to influence my practical decisions and make my mind go haywire make merry during this state. I start doing stuff like procrastinating even though I know its wrong.
These are the times when my morale is pretty low. I try to begin an activity and never complete it. You can see the disconcerted and dazed look in my eyes. At these times I am usually aware that I need to do a lot of things but my mind refuses to organise thoughts. The labyrinthine of thoughts meander through my nonplussed mind trying to find a purpose and a destination but usually perish somewhere along the arduous journey.
These are the times when frustration creeps in. I dont know what is right and what is wrong. I feel that I am leading life without a goal. The end is not known. My purpose, my aspirations, my objectives tend to obviate.
These are the times I am looking for motivation. That silver lining which will give me hope and faith during these morbid times. To put my mind back on track. To start building stepping stones out of the stumbling blocks.
Then I receive that bit of encouragement. It comes in the form of words, not by mouth, not by postcards, but by email. It tells me that life goes on. It does not wait. My mind needs to catch up with it. An introspection is necessary but not important. My mind gains back the confidence. It is trying to find the path that it had lost. My thoughts start organising themselves for the proliferant journey ahead.
Strange are the ways in which the mind works.
These are the times when I have lost focus. A Man's brain I know has none of the multitasking features that its better half, the Female brain has. Thoughts that tend to influence my practical decisions and make my mind go haywire make merry during this state. I start doing stuff like procrastinating even though I know its wrong.
These are the times when my morale is pretty low. I try to begin an activity and never complete it. You can see the disconcerted and dazed look in my eyes. At these times I am usually aware that I need to do a lot of things but my mind refuses to organise thoughts. The labyrinthine of thoughts meander through my nonplussed mind trying to find a purpose and a destination but usually perish somewhere along the arduous journey.
These are the times when frustration creeps in. I dont know what is right and what is wrong. I feel that I am leading life without a goal. The end is not known. My purpose, my aspirations, my objectives tend to obviate.
These are the times I am looking for motivation. That silver lining which will give me hope and faith during these morbid times. To put my mind back on track. To start building stepping stones out of the stumbling blocks.
Then I receive that bit of encouragement. It comes in the form of words, not by mouth, not by postcards, but by email. It tells me that life goes on. It does not wait. My mind needs to catch up with it. An introspection is necessary but not important. My mind gains back the confidence. It is trying to find the path that it had lost. My thoughts start organising themselves for the proliferant journey ahead.
Strange are the ways in which the mind works.
posted by Sriniketh S at
10:40 PM
2 Comments:
Interesting...was that just a post or you in a reflective mood???
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Anonymous, at 1:03 AM
#anonymous
Well its both!!! Let me explain the mood swings. I was in a pretty reflective mood yesterday in the evening when I started writing the post. The mood was as mentioned in the beginning of the post.
But an event in the morning gave me a new perspective and thus the ending which I wrote in the morning ends with a positive note!!!
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Sriniketh S, at 1:23 AM
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