Is that me?

(First I would like to acknowledge Rupam's comments on this, this and this post. He is one of the very few readers who has given the most appropriate comments on most of my posts!!!)

As I watched the episode of Friends where Chandler is called unemotional (the non crying type!!!) by the others it just struck me that I too fall a lot into that category. I thought I will just list some things (I dont know if its a list of flaws) about me that the people who read this blog will surely know about. And you might also ask me what I am doing trying to list my own flaws when I am actually trying to woo Her. (the usage of the word "woo" might sound quite dramatic but that is how one of my friends actually asked me "So are you trying to woo her?". And incidently that friend is the only one who actually guessed who She actually is). But coming back to the question on listing some questionalble traits at such a sensitive period, I feel that it shouldnt make a difference!!!

I am unemotional :
As I looked up the meaning of this word, it said "Not easily stirred or moved in feeling". And I somehow felt that I show this trait. I have also heard people say the following to me "This is the first time I am seeing you get emotional" or "I have never seen you get emotional". Among the few times that I could have actually got emotional, I have always tried to get the best out of the situation than lose control on my emotions. But then people could always ask "Doesnt anything move or stir you?" and "Would that mean that you are an insensitive guy?" Well relating unemotional and insensitive is a mistake. For example some things that does stir me are human relationships (read man - woman realtionship). So some of the love stories do move me but I would never cry out loud and that does not show my inner feelings does it? I am just not vocal about it.

I dont trust anyone easily:
Let me be frank, I actually trust no one expect me. But there are a few people who have actually entered my list of trustworthy people and believe me, the list is small.
I have a "dont care" attitude: I usually care only for stuff that I am really passionate about and dont give a second glance to things that dont affect me.

People say that I am lazy:
But I never procrastinate. I might not come for a movie or a dinner or maybe for a jog in the park but these are not things that fascinate me. And thus people term me as lazy. If you call me to a bookshop or to Corner House for some ice-cream I will never refuse!!!

I dont like to lose:
Now that does no mean that I am a sore loser. I just dont take up any activity without applying a lot of thought into it proving that I am a risk averse guy. But when I have taken up an endeavour I would have planned it to the last detail so that I dont fail. Due to this I have actually missed out of a lot of stuff which I could have done.

I am pretty manipulative:
Well usually the word manipulative has a negetive connotation attached to it. But I feel that being manipulative is very necessary in today's world if I need to succeed in meeting my ambitions.

Acceptance of one's traits is the first step to improvement. But I dont think I will compromise on any of the above!!!