Emotional range of a teaspoon

Some things are best said after a few drinks, a couple of mojitos in my case today. Some things are never to be told. Of course sometimes there is never a reason to "get high" after a couple of drinks or even a space brownie in Amsterdam....but that can be attributed to the fact that I have only got the emotional range of a teaspoon.

But, there are times when I have no idea why I end up hurting someone. These are times when a friend just drifts apart, a friendship that gives a cozy and comfortable feeling enters into troubled waters....and I have no idea how to set that right. Well, time they say solves everything...but in this case there has to be something I can do....I just havent figured out what that is.....

from me

In the recent past I have been made to realise that there is a problem in me. Of all the many problems this one is the most critical. Its very tough to put this problem on paper as I am not sure how to express it....

This trait in me has hurt people around me. As such I have no skills in interacting with people, be it with friends or family or office collegues. But that doesnt mean that I should not use a bit of my mind and hear at such things.

It could be termed ego. Have to realise that this will only alieanate me from others

Its not that I am happy with the "I dont care" attitude ....

This will change.....

2011

I know its been some time since I posted something here. But then I have no reason to give other than laziness. So what prompted me to actually write something now? I have no clue....could just be boredom........

Well after giving it some thought I think its boredom......and nothing else

Now the most obvious thing that I am supposed to write about is what I did on the 31st of dec.....but there again I have few words to say. I slept at 11pm on the 31st and woke up at 10:30 on the 1st. Not the most exciting thing to actually write about. I do sound like a pathetic loser. But whos complaining

So how was 2010........not much to complain about there I would say....
Jan - was in brugge
Feb - was in brugge
March - was in Blr for a week to eat dosa
Apr - was in brugge for a couple of weeks and then in blr
may - was in blr
June - went on a trek to Goecha La - 16000 ft - just cant believe that I actually had the stamina to complete that trek
July - was in brugge. Visited Prague, Bratislava, Budapest
Aug - was in brugge for a week. Just missed a trip to Shanghai
Sep - was in Blr
Oct - was in Blr
Nov - Bought an apt in Blr - it was an impromptu decision. Was in Brugge in the last week
Dec - was in Brugge.Experienced snow in Europe for the 3rd consecutive year

No reason I would call that an uneventful year

Resolutions for 2011 - None

I will continue to live life with the same "I dont care" attitude. I will not quit drinking and will not start smoking. So nothing to be excited about there.

Will I get married this year? I dont think I will.

Cheering me up

Some would say I am just trying to be a pompous ass but then thats the whole point of writing a feel good post. As I spent a day (a pleasant European summer day at that) on the bed delving deep into my loser life I decided that the only thing to get me out of this mood would be my list.

India
Singapore
Malaysia
The Netherlands
France
Belgium
Austria
Luxembourg
Germany
Italy
The Vatican City
Spain
Switzerland
England

Yes the countries I have visited.

Now I thought this would bring me out of the depression. But it only made me feel even worse. So it was back into the self loathing thoughts.

Maybe the fact that I have had the top beer of the world, Westvelteren 12, would make me feel like I am standing on top of the world.......

Nah....Felt the same still.....And I dont know why it is at the top. I can name at least 3 more better ones. Ok I am not the expert on alcohol. All the iyengar mamis who are looking for the eligible bachelor (iyengar) for their daughter please note that I am "not" the guy who can drown himself in alcohol and dance in pubs along with babes (scantily clad).

Maybe the fact that I actually completed a strenuous trek with a wild crazy gang of people to Goecha La (16000 ft) to see the Kachenjunga staring at my face would make me feel better. The sights did lift my spirits but then, only for a moment.

Now I have to digress. The girls in Europe in summer. To say it in a few meaningful words, ALL BABES ONLY. And I cant stop drooling. In the Bangalore airport before getting on the flight I was sight adichyfying the "bangalore babes" (please please note the quotes) and told my friend that Indian girls are the most beautiful in the world. He looked at me as if I had just landed from the moon. Maybe its been a while since my last trip to Belgium (2 months to be precise), but now that I have spent 2 weeks here I will have give 10/10 to the girls here. And actually take away a few points from the bangalore girls based on strict negative marking. Ok, I digress

Now is the sight of the Euro Babes (of the summer) lifting my spirits? Nah....its only depressing me more.....

Ok then whats going to cheer me up???

Will be back

How can I not write the last post from hotel Prinsenhof, Brugge. As I walked around the town one last time today as it is the end of my visa and the project, I had only one thought in mind......

I will be back one day......

there r very few instances in ur life when u will write a post after u r completely drunk. does thar mean i will tell her name.....maybe maybe not

let me try to recall some keywords

pcl
brugge
prinsenhof
belfry
tv
connectivity
da vinci
waffle
barcelona
trickmode
oostende
bus 3
sluis
bowling stones
croissant
chinese
cathedraak
blocking call
speelmansrei
nele
she
tmf
duvel
indian tandoor
switzerland
corona
one roof
pita
t zand
bring up
orange juice
her
demo
falafel
irish pub
550
swarovski
56
windmill
57
samuroi sauce
her
irish pub
elise

The search will begin

I have kept this page open for the last 30 min and I have no clue what to write....

My parents are now beginning the search for a bride ....... I think I am not ready yet. I am not very sure if I should let others search the girl or I should put in the effort

My mind says to get her out of my head but my heart doesnt think I will ever be ready for that